broken-in-nc's Diaryland Diary

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Musings from 2008 (May)

May 1, 2008 - Thursday
I had a pretty challenging week and then I come home and I get the cold shoulder because I used my Gap card. Good. Next time I’ll just pay full price for everything instead of using my card to get a discount. Must be nice to be the only one who can spend my money. He called earlier and said he wouldn’t be able to start his concrete job because the ground is still wet. Anyway he called and asked if there was anything I needed him to do. All I asked him to do was pick up a new litterbox and litter. Two days ago I started to go and get it myself and he wouldn’t go with me. I wasn’t surprised to come home and find no litterbox. I fixed some hamburgers on the grill. Andy was able to get us a great deal on a roof. They’ll be here on Monday. So we all came in and Spooky pooped in the dining room again. I told Kevin that’s why I asked him to get the new stuff. He just kept saying the box was clean. Maybe to him but not to Spooky and not to me. It may be clump and poop free but that box stinks! So I had enough. I grabbed my purse and set out to do what I meant to do several days ago. Polly wanted to go too so I went with my little dog to Petco. $60 later I got a new box, litter and their food. I don’t care what Kevin thinks. He should’ve done it when I asked him to.

Spooky checked out the new box as soon as I set it down. I hope that works. I hate cat pee and I darn sure hate it in my dining room. I don’t know why Kevin thinks I don’t care. I spent an hour in there trying to clean up that area. I guess that don’t matter. Just like everyone else. Hateful unless they need or want something.

Still no dot. CD34 and counting. Getting crampier so hopefully I’ll start on my own. I’m giving it until next Saturday.

The way Kevin is acting I’m about to call it quits.

Ashley and I went to Café Europa for lunch. It was really nice. We sat outside. It’s across the street from the City Park. The fountain at the park was so pretty. If it’s nice this weekend I’d like to go back downtown this weekend.

Somehow I messed up my calendar. Cristy is supposed to come in the weekend of the 16th. Dorrell’s graduation is also that weekend. I have to see him graduate. I haven’t had a chance to talk to Cristy. What’s weird is he graduates on Sunday. I though the 18th was on a Saturday.

I’m just really disappointed that Kevin hasn’t been more supportive. He’s distant. I still feel trapped. We can’t be openly intimate like we usually are. I think it has a lot to do with it.

May 4, 2008 - Sunday
This was one of the most beautiful weekends we have had. Friday was busier than I had planned. I almost went to Starbuck’s before going home but I decided not to. I did go to Garden Ridge at lunch and picked up two obelisks for my morning glories and a new pot for my schefflera plant. I did get some other seeds started. My zinnia seedlings dried up. I had to water them. Some came back. I think I lost most of them. It was disappointing.

I got up yesterday and decided to work on my journal. Diaryland revamped their site in March. It looks nice. It needed it. So I go to work on my journal and my password doesn’t work. And neither does any other password I tried. I don’t know what it is and several password cracking programs and two days later nothing can break the code. Cristy has been running a crack on it since yesterday. She said, “Dude. You must have some password.” If it doesn’t get figured out by tomorrow I am going to pay to have it decrypted. This is ridiculous. I have tried every possible password and combination I can think of. In a few minutes for $30 it will be done. I told her that if whatever program we use would just reveal the first few letters I’d figure out whatever it is and I know when it’s revealed I’m going to kick myself.

I almost didn’t put a password on it but I obviously did. I must’ve misspelled it, twice, because I always use the same password. I just want to get it cracked.

Kevin and I finally had some time with each other. Yesterday after he finished his job he came home. I hadn’t gotten out of my PJs yet when he called. I groomed myself and after he fixed our leaking A/C we took Mike his stuff back and went to Jimmy the Greek’s for lunch. It was nice to have lunch alone. We went to Lowe’s. We got a maple tree. We planted it at the northwest corner of the house. It will make a nice shade tree.

I took Adam to Rack Room Shoes. He needed a bigger pair. We went to Harris Teeter and I got my stuff to make risotto. I made it today and it was so good. I was still trying to find my verbena so we went to Home Depot. That was a waste of time. We went to Lowe’s and they had them. Yay! I also got a packet of cilantro seeds and some hollyhock seeds because Adam said, “Cool. I didn’t know flowers could be black.”

1. Still no dot
2. Glad I went to church
3. Message was perfect

May 5, 2008 - Monday
Happy Monday and Happy Cinco de Mayo! Kevin left this morning to go to Morgantown and get Dorrell. He will be back tomorrow afternoon. I wish I could’ve gone with him.

Ashley and I went to La Fiesta for lunch. After we ate we walked next door to Rugged Wearhouse. It’s the same as Gabe’s. They had a lot of spring dresses. I found a few that I could actually wear. I didn’t try them on until after work in the bathroom. Surprisingly all three dresses and the two tops fit me. I also bought a cute bag with pink hearts on it. This afternoon just crept by. I was not terribly busy. I got at least some of my Yahoo Calendar updated. I emailed our lender the paperwork they asked for. I let them know that we’re getting our roof replaced tomorrow.

I halfway told Ashley that Kevin and I were TTC. A month ago she got her dot. I usually get mine the following week. She’s about to have her next one and I never got my last one. CD38 and counting.

We had some very strong thunderstorms while I was at work but apparently none of that came here. The roofers will be here tomorrow. I’m excited to see how it turns out.

Tomorrow morning I’ll be voting for the first time. I’m kind of excited about it. It will be something new.

Still no luck cracking my password. Can’t do much work to it during the weekday anyway. Cristy is still running it through whatever password cracker she has and I’m doing it too. Hers has been going since Saturday. I would’ve let it run but I can’t leave my log on logged in under my name. I’m letting it run tonight.

I’ve been seriously craving Starbuck’s but it has not worked out where I can get it.

I miss not having Kevin here.

May 6, 2008 - Tuesday
I was having a really good day until this afternoon. This morning I got my vote on before I went to work. There weren’t a lot of people there. There were only two people ahead of me at my registration table. There were probably less than a dozen people voting. I’m glad I was able to do it especially since it was my first time.

I went to Wendy’s and picked up some lunch and tailgated at the lake. I only saw three goslings but that really big turtle was out there. It was a really nice day and then after my wonderful day at the lake I got a phone call from our lender. To make a long story short he can’t do the loan. Our house appraised for $150K and that wasn’t enough to pay off our current mortgage, pay off the truck and pay off that stupid judgment to CNB. I was and am still so upset. I’m not surprised and I had told Kevin earlier not to get his hopes up. I asked the lender what he suggested we do and he said to wait until August when the housing market may be better. Yeah right. And pay another $350 to have my house reappraised? No thank you. I also told him we were having our roof replaced and he said it wouldn’t make much of a difference because it’s considered maintenance. Are you serious? You can’t honestly expect me to believe that a new roof would not increase the market value of your home. What a crock of crap. I didn’t have much more to say to him. Thanks for nothing. Back to square one.

Needless to say I’ve been pretty bummed ever since. Kevin made it back safely around 5pm. He dropped Dorrell off at Enterprise and we met at Cracker Barrel for dinner. He had suggested Jake’s Diner but I told him I wasn’t sure I’d be able to handle cigarette smoke. We should’ve just gone to Jake’s. I wasn’t really all there, my meatloaf wasn’t hot and all Kevin wanted to talk about was work and money. Now what I knew would happen if the refinance didn’t pan out happened. All I hear is we’re broke, we gotta do this, we can’t do that. I don’t need to hear it. I know. He reminds me every day. Enough already. We’ve cut back all we can. I just don’t know what more to do.

I went ahead and had my journal decrypted. $30. Five minutes. Done. Peace of mind. Cristy is going to keep running the cracker. I have to have misspelled the password, whatever in the world it is.

There is a chili cook off at the Farmer’s Market this weekend. I want to go. I’ll be bringing some Tums.

Still no dot. I’ve been having some mild cramping but that’s all. Kevin is not concerned. He still believes that it will happen when God says the time is right. I try to believe that but it’s hard. Crackheads and prostitutes can have babies all of the time. Why can’t I have one more so that I feel complete?

May 7, 2008 - Wednesday
1. Reliance Meeting
2. Arby’s at lake
3. Bubble Tea

I was late for the reliance letter meeting this morning. I'm kind of glad. I was because I just stood at the door and listened. It was hot in there. I would've passed out.

It was a really nice day. Ashley and I went to Arby's and brought it to the lake. Next time we'll have to find a flatter spot to sit. I felt like I was going to roll down the hill. My drink kept tipping over. There were so many turtles. We saw itty bitty ones too.

I'm really tired of our living arrangement. I fixed bubble tea and had to hear, "What in the world are you drinking?" I said, "Bubble tea," and walked off. I'm tired of hearing it. I didn't make it for you. Stay out of my business.

May 8, 2008 - Thursday
1. Review
2. McDonald’s/Lowes
3. Lender called back. : |
4. Storm

Sigh. My review was this morning. I guess it went well. I didn't get harped at. She praised me for my customer service skills and she said that my attitude has been better. She didn't have any suggestions for my cube issue. I said, "Other than an office I don't know how to fix it." She felt the same way I did about have your back to the door. No one can see that you're on the phone and then you have people like Brian who walk in talking up a storm. She still won't tear away from everyone having to sign in everything with Shannon. Even though she hates it. She said people have said that they're afraid things won't go out. What a crock. That's just her. There is no easy solution. There never will be. Shannon is supposed to tell her if things have gone out and Denise still asks me. It's so stupid. It's such a waste of time. Hopefully I got a good raise out of this. I need it. I'm tired of nickel and diming it.

I went to McDonald's for lunch and then went to Lowes. I got some seeds and the Susan B. Komen dahlia. It's really pretty. I got Four O'clock seeds, Mexican sunflowers and green zinnias.

The lender called back. I pretty much told her that she wasn't offering enough of a savings for me to go through with it. I'd rather sit tight.

May 9, 2008 - Friday
1. Carin’s party. Same ol’.
2. Carin’s cat had kittens.

We had the worst storms last night. We were in a Tornado Watch for most of the night. We watched We Are Marshall and came up at about 10pm and there was nothing but the news on. There were tornadoes all around us. We brought Adam in here with us, just in case we had to make a mad dash to the basement. After watching all of the flashing radars I was way ready for bed. I told Kevin if it gets that bad wake me up. There was really nasty lightening and thunder. Earlier in the day it was thundering but there was no lightening and the sky was creepy dark. Jada and I said there is only one thing that means. Tornadoes.

This morning on my way to work I saw what damage there was. A tornado went through Colfax and the Sandy Ridge Road area. All of the trees at the Farmer's Market had snapped. The interstate sign was bent back and the glass in the Farmer's Market sign was all broken. All of the leaves and debris was blown against the barrier between the east and west bound lanes. It was clear from which direction it came and it was amazing to see how selective it was. There was a very defined path. I'm glad we only got rain and wind. We were supposed to get 80mph winds.

I went to a new bubble tea shop and it was great. It is in the International Mall so there was not a parking issue like the Boba House. I can't wait to take Cristy. I took my taro bubble tea and picked up some friend rice from Panda Express and then went to K-Mart since I was right there. I got my bougainvillea. Mine I'm pretty sure is gone. I know it's never going to come out of its stick phase. I'm still going to keep it. Just in case. I bought some more canna bulbs and two more trays of Jiffy pellets and thistle for my finches. I also bought some fade cream. I've got to do something about these little marks on my chin.

Carin's party went pretty good. Janet hasn't changed the way she presents the product. I think she's too pushy. The food was good though. There were only a couple of things that I haven't tried. There was a taco ball and a cilantro and "something" salsa that was good and I got to try the Bacon Bacon dip. I liked that but not enough to get it. I got the Orange Cream drink mix, tomato pesto mix and another box of the Nana's Apple Cake mix. I said I'd book a party in July but I can't guarantee it. I don't get enough of an incentive to do it too often. Plus she kept pushing me to come back to Club and how Adam needs to come over to do a project. Not when it's going to cost me $20 a pop. I may have him do something for Father's Day though. I told her I couldn't come tomorrow because we had stuff to do.

May 10, 2008 - Saturday
1. Kevin and I went to Winston-Salem/Lewisville to drive around
2. Ate lunch at Carving Board. Not impressed.
3. My dahlias withered away. : |
4. Planted new one in sitting area.
5. Glads sprouted. : )
6. Started Prometrium.

I didn't get to do all I had hoped to do but I did get to spend time with Kevin all day. I had planned on checking out the community calendar on WBFJ's website but our computer has been slow as crap for the past two days. I was going to try and check it before we left but I never did. I gave up on it. Then I remembered why we uninstalled the anti-virus. I removed that and things moved along better.

Kevin and I went for a drive. He wanted to go through parts of Winston he hadn't seen before. We drove through Old Salem and around downtown. We were looking at landscaping and all of the pretty rhododendrons in bloom. Kevin took us through the hood, as always, and then I got him back on course. We ate lunch at The Carving Board. I was not very impressed. My sandwich was good but there really isn't any rhyme or reason to how you place your order. I mean there is no defined "Order Here" line so you don't know where to go and there really isn't a defined menu with pricing. They had other things besides sandwiches. They had some yummy looking salads. Kevin got baked chicken. He only got three small pieces and that was $7. Everything that wasn't a sandwich was by the pound. I'd go back but not for the deli stuff. We drove through the neighborhoods off of Stratford Road and Country Club Drive. Sometimes you have to get off the beaten path.

The dahlias I had been hoping to do well shriveled up and withered down. I don't know what happened. The last time I checked on them they were two happy shoots coming up. I was really counting on the one. Those were the dinner plate sized ones. I'm hoping the root sends up more shoots. At least the pink ones I got look nice where I planted them. The "patio" is looking more like a garden instead of a pit. The glads I planted in the container on the deck have come up. They're almost six inches tall.

I still haven't started my dot. Today is CD42 or CD43. Whatever it is I started the Prometrium so hopefully I'll start soon.

May 11, 2008 - Sunday
1. Church. Baby Dedication. Proverbs 31.
2. Tex & Shirley’s for lunch. : |
3. Adam gave me my card and my garden shoes. Made me ;(
4. Took a long nap
5. No dinner out. : |

Happy Mother's Day! I tried calling Mom but I didn't get her so I left a message. Kevin said she called really early this morning like at 630am! What was she thinking? I thought I heard the phone ring but I wasn't really coherent at that hour.

We got up and went to church this morning. I'm glad I got up and went. Pastor Jake did a message from Proverbs 31 called "Mom's the Bomb" - Live By Faith. It was just what I needed to hear. That verse is more of a list of her accomplishments than a look at her daily life. When you look at it that way it's much easier to apply it to your life or your situation.

After worship and before service they had the baby dedication. That was hard for me. Kevin mentioned in prayer at lunch that he knew that was hard for me. Hearing that made me more tearful than the actual dedication. At least I know he knows. I really didn't want to go to Tex & Shirley's but that's where we went. The line was backed up to the door. Oh well. At least we didn't get that scatterbrained waitress again. My dollar pancakes were great too.

Adam gave me the sweetest Mother's Day card. In the very back he thanked me for giving him the gift of life. I cried. It was so precious. Before I took my long nap I read it again. He also got me a pair of blue Crocs. I brought them downstairs to show Kevin. I told him that I had been thinking about getting a pair. Adam said I could wear them in the garden. They're one size too big but they are still really comfortable. Kevin said Adam used his own foot to guess my size. I'm going to take them to CVS and exchange them for a smaller size. They are the best gift I've received. I don't care that Kevin didn't get me a card of his own. He said Adam took his time to find a good one. We didn't go out for dinner either but I don't care. What he gave me came from the heart. That means more to me than any dinner anywhere. Spending the day with Kevin most of the day yesterday is more precious to me than any card Kevin could've picked up.

May 12, 2008 - Monday
This weekend is going to be super busy. I'm still not exactly sure what our itinerary is. Gary C's Dad is dying. He has been moved to Hospice and they do not give him very much time at all to live.

I just really needed to be alone today. I went to Bear Rock Café for lunch. I hadn't been there in a long time. I got a bowl of broccoli cheddar soup and a half of a chicken salad sandwich. It was not too bad actually. After I ate I walked down to Sally's. They didn't have the nail brush I was looking for so I just got one like they have at every nail salon. I also got a foot file and with it I got a pair of Tweezerman toe nail clippers for free. I bought a bottle of yummy smelling cuticle oil. Smells like oranges.

I am waiting on a new RF switch so I can get my Mario on. I want to play 3D World Runner. I found some videos on You Tube of it. I did a screen shot of the bok choys and sent it to Cristy. She got tickled.

Kevin fixed hot dogs for dinner. They were good even though he had no chili. He did get slaw though. I grated a sweet gherkin for Adam. We ran out of relish.

May 13, 2008 - Tuesday
Yay! Adam and I got our Mario on! Adam was in the door way talking to Devin when I asked him, "Wanna get some Mario on?" He said, "Ooh, yeah! Devin I gotta go." Ha! He had his switch but they must not have hooked it up right because he said it didn't work. We played a quick game before we had to go to bed. It does not take long for 9pm to come around but 5pm will take forever. We're going to get our game on tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm getting in "The Boot."

Ashley and I were craving something different for lunch today. We went to Chipotle. It was expensive but it was good. It is like a less complicated and quieter Moe's. The menu was so much simpler. You choose what you want, what meat you want and if you want a side. I would definitely go back again.

We went to Kohl's. I needed a body shaper, bad. I'm so tired of this roll hanging over my pants. It makes things harder when I look 8 months pregnant when I'm not and when I can't. It's like a slap in the face. At least this shaper smoothes things out a bit but it's only a temporary fix. Eventually it has to come off.

Ashley had to walk a site but on her way back she picked up two Blizzards. She got me a Strawberry Cheesequake. Great. Just what I needed after buying a girdle at lunch. I have no will power.

May 14, 2008 - Wednesday
Denise invited us all for lunch to Binh Minh. Surprisingly Shannon went. I had to help Brian try to finalize a report before I left. When I got outside Jason and Shannon were waiting by the car. No sooner we got in the car she started complaining about where we were going. Jason said something to her about it. Geez. It's a free lunch. We were also talking about Gary going on and on and never shutting up and she had the nerve to say something. I just looked at Jason. I know he was thinking the same thing I was. She hadn't shut up from the time she got in the car and she had the nerve to say something. Anyway Ashley didn't get to go but I told her that I wanted to order a bubble tea just to see Shannon's reaction. There's so sense in snarling up your nose at what everyone else is eating because you don't like it. You didn't have to come if you didn't want to.

It was not such a bad day for me. Same old stuff. Still waiting on my dot. Should be sometime at the end of the week. I thought I started yesterday but it was just a false alarm. As Mom would say, I was just "juicy."

Adam and I played a more serious game of Mario tonight but then it was time for bed. He said, "Now I know why it took ya'll so long to beat the game." Well, you couldn't always hit save. Thank goodness for Toots!

Adam did make me mad last night. I told him a long time ago do not take your DS or anything back to Game Stop because they'll rip you off. He didn't go but he had Devin go and take his DS and exchanged it for a PS2, something I specifically did not want him to have. Kevin was hot because of it. He has no business with it. I almost took it to take it back but why bother. It's just the fact that all of the games were bought by someone else so it's more like ripping them off. I hate all of this exchanging and trading crap.

I have to pack tomorrow to go to WV. I wasn't able to get Friday off but I did get Monday. His graduation starts at 5pm so we won't be getting out of there until at least 8pm. I don't even know where we're all going to stay and how in the world we're going to get five people and one small dog in my car. I want to rent a "shoe" and drive up alone.

May 15, 2008 - Thursday
If there's one thing I hate about working late it's coming home so late that you practically eat and go straight to bed.

Only Jason and Ashley were there at lunch time. We decided to go to Moe's. Then I got an email from Shannon asking if I had lunch plans. Of course I didn't want to invite her but I had to. I went back to get her and she wasn't there. I passed her in the hallway on my way to the front and when I asked her if she was coming she said that she couldn't because of some report and then kept stomping away. Good. I didn't really want her going anyway. I don't mean that in a bad way. It's just we had to hear her bitch and whine the whole time we were in the car. On our way to the car Jason and I were recapping yesterday's events. He was like "Yeah. She was complaining about a free lunch. Man, I'd eat at Thai if it were free." Exactly. Randy passed out coupons the other day for Moe's so we all used those. Thank goodness for coupons. We had a nice laid back lunch.

And then we had to go back to work and if anything could happen it did. I just kept getting one email after another asking for something. I had a report that needed to go out and stupid Edgar was messed up on my computer. I sent Denise an email earlier telling her that I am through with Edgar. She forwarded it to Steve. Our email went down and so it wasn't until much later that she did that and in turn sent it to someone in our corporate office. It's awful funny my computer was fine this morning until I started working on Ashley's report. I kept getting a spell check error message and then it deleted the Executive Summary. I was hot. I sent in a Help Desk ticket and waited. Steve kept asking if I had heard from them yet. Nope. I started working on my other report. Denise gave me one of those "he needs this first thing in the morning" reports so I was there late. Finally, at 530pm, the Help Desk called. For thirty minutes they screwed around with my computer. Found out it's only me so I have to call in the morning so that they can re-install Edgar, again. What a waste of time? By that time email was working so I emailed the powers that be the news. I finished my other report and emailed it to the client. I told him I'd deliver the hard copies in the morning. He replied and said that hand delivery isn't necessary. Figures.

I have to pack to go out of town. We have to get Dorrell tomorrow. Kevin had wanted to leave a day early to see Lawrence but I told him I already tried and I couldn't get Friday off only Monday.

Denise did thank me for my help. She told me to take Kevin out to dinner and expense it. Yay!

May 16, 2008 - Friday
We arrived safely at my Folks. Our trip went by quickly. Adam and Dorrell were dancing in the back of the car. They are a mess.

IT worked on my computer most of this morning. Something was wrong with my user profile and it had to be recreated. This was after they reinstalled whatever they needed to. I worked on what I could from Ashley's computer. In trying to fix my computer yet another section of the report was deleted. Finally they fixed it. Oh and yesterday he revealed to me that was the same report she couldn't finalize. Since I hadn't been able to get much done all morning anyway I went to lunch. Everyone was in Phase I training so they few of us left went to Jam's. I haven't been there in a long time. I just forget about it being there.

The rest of the afternoon I was so busy from trying to get caught up. I got all of my files copied but all of my shortcuts had to be recreated and my email had to be set up so I was displaced for awhile just trying to get back to normal. I should have known not to ask to leave early. I think I jinx myself every time. I struggled just to leave when I did. Jada asked me to take her samples to the lab and without giving it much thought I said yes. I finished what I had and rushed out the door. I called the lab to tell them I was coming and I called Dorrell too. I was hoping he'd be ready but he wasn't quite ready. I called the lab and since it was after 5pm I got their voicemail. I called Randy to find out what to do if no one was there. Thank goodness I got there and some folks were still there. I really didn't want to keep potentially contaminated soil in my fridge at home.

Kevin took Polly to the vet and got her shots caught up. He said a $60 visit turned into a $120 visit. Good. Now you know what I go through when I take her to the vet. They also clipped her very long toe nails and gave her a bath. She rode up front with me. She curled in a ball in the floor. She wouldn't sit still in my lap. "Smell my breath."

No Name was curled in Polly's crate. I put Polly in there and No Name grabbed her and kicked her. I had to separate them. Dorrell is staying here tonight with us. They took Gary up Joey's after dropping us off. We have a busy two days coming. Good Night.

May 17, 2008 - Saturday
We skipped breakfast this morning to go to Morgantown. Dad and Adam had already left to go to McDonald's. Mom went to the flea market. We got to Dorrell's place after we picked up his Dad and step-Mom at their hotel. Dorrell's Dad's name is Moses. Dorrell's step-Mom's name is Pauline. Dorrell took them to his place. Kevin and I gassed up Gray and went to the Morgantown Mall. I needed a shirt to go with my skirt. All I wanted was a simple blue dress shirt. Three stores later I settled for a black and white top from Sear's. Kevin and I ate lunch at Chick-fil-a in the food court. There are some really scrubby looking people at that mall. That mall, Kevin told me, was recently built to replace the old Morgantown Mall. It looks like it's been there for twenty years. They just don't take care of it. Kevin got Adam and Aaron a pair of Marbury's from Steve & Barry's. I got a pair of shoes too. They are from Venus Williams' line. They're white and lavender. They look nice plus they're only $11. Kevin dropped me off at Dorrell's and then went with him to Pastor's house to get the grill. Most everyone else went to Aldi to get the cook out stuff. Kevin and I were going to go to the Outback but we couldn't pass up staying. We were there until 7pm. I think we had a great time. We are meeting all of them again after church tomorrow. I love Pam's house. Cristy would too. It's done in primitive. I wish I could do mine in primitive especially since it's a colonial. Maybe a little at a time, room by room, I'll start doing it.

Well, guess what? This morning I finally got my dot. My cycle was 49 days long. I started to pack my monitor but I forgot. I even had to buy tampoons, hair spray and mouse at the dollar store.

May 18, 2008 - Sunday
Awe! Baby Boy graduated today. On our way here I sent him a text message telling him "I didn't get to tell you before we left that I love you and I am very proud of you." Words of a Mom, I know.

I forgot my hair dryer. I had to use Pam's. I couldn't find her bathroom light switch. The guest bathroom is real small. Both Kevin and I couldn't really stay in there plus it was so hot in there I couldn't stay in there anyway. I had to pull my skirt up to my boobs for it to fit. I'm glad it was a long skirt. I'm just tired of looking pregnant when I'm not. Service was good. It's been a long time since I read Judges. Basically the message was we need to get up off our butts and do something about all of these changes going on. CA just passed a law allowing same sex marriage, yet kids can't pray at lunch before they eat. I believe that with all that is going on in the world the "end of days" is here.

We grabbed lunch at McDonald's on our way to the coliseum. We had to swing by the Golden Trough first to gather up the family. At least I wasn't the only one with my skirt hiked up. Gloria was having issues with her skirt too.

After the graduation we got some really good pictures and then we all went on our merry way. Kevin and I went to the Meadowbrook Mall. I had to stop and get me another skirt. I went to Sears since I had such good luck there before. I found a very cute long skirt. It swings and has a nice comfy stretchy waistband. We ate dinner at the Outback. We saw Carolyn behind us. What are the odds? Her grandson graduated today too. Gotta go to bed. Too much drama. Bet you can't guess about what.

May 19, 2008 - Monday
I'm glad I had today off. It was nice to have one more day at my Folks. Dad had to work and Adam spent the night with Cristy and Matt. Mom and I ate breakfast at Shoney's and then went to Lowe's. I got my phlox, red daylilies and dianthus. Mom was looking for a handle for her shovel. I told her maybe Green's Feed and Seed (and feed and seed) would have them, so that's where we went. We never made it inside. We were outside walking through the garden center. They really expanded their stuff. It was really nice. They had clematis with flowers the size of my hand. I've only ever seen the much smaller ones. Cristy called and we met her at the Capitol Market for lunch. We ate at the little seafood place. I had a tuna salad sandwich. It was really good. We never made it back over to Green's.

We went to pick up Adam and then went to Walmart. Mom needed a tent. I was lucky enough to find more plant bulbs. They were on clearance too and there was one bag of dahlias left. The Parker Vector is back. I always go through the pen aisle just in case and they had some in very bright colors. They had Jotters in bright colors too. I had to get a Vector. I have one but it's really beat up. The ad on the pen is about worn off.
We had to wait for Dad to come home from work before we left. Kevin had gone to his Dad's this morning. I saw Gray at Tudor's when me and Mom went out this morning. He was ready to go early but I told him we had to wait. He's pretty ticked at Gary. I don't blame him. I told him last night I had a feeling he wasn't coming back but dang man up and say you decided to stay. You don't have to explain yourself but you owe Kevin a courtesy call. I told him he knows when the bus leaves if he's not there tough. So we're both glad he didn't come back but Kevin did need help with an upcoming project. He'll have to find someone else. I said "I have some pen pals I need to write back. Now I can do it without someone hangin' over my shoulder." Kevin was just glad he gets to walk around in his underwear again. So he's been to three or four places now. He'll wear out his welcome at Joey's too. He just started acting weird. He wouldn't eat with us. He'd fix something separate. Kevin always offered him a plate and he'd say, "Naw man. I'm not hungry." What a crock. This is the same person who keeps saying he can't go all day without eating but when Kevin would go in the next day to get some leftovers it would be gone or like one day we fixed chicken there were pieces missing so he was eating he was just waiting until after we went to bed. Kevin was asking if he ate and he'd say no. Sure man. Just weird. There sure is a pattern of habit. I hope this Joey's cable is locked down. He'll be getting a big bill with porn charges too. Just like Dennis, us, Linda and Gary and wherever else he's been. We're actually sleeping with the door open tonight.

May 20, 2008 - Tuesday
My peonies bloomed. They are so pretty. I didn't have time to cut a few and bring them to work. Jada had one on her desk. It was so pretty. It was pink. My pink ones haven't produced buds yet. I'm thinking that they may not produce flowers this year. My white ones, that I planted last year as a plant with only one blossom on it, has over a dozen buds on it. They smell different too. They smell like roses. Maybe the others are just late bloomers.

I picked up lunch at McDonald's and went to the lake to chill out. Sometimes I need that. Sometimes I just need "me time".

Chem Dry came to the house today. We will have to replace the padding. They quoted some crazy price on carpet and padding. Like $900 for both the dining room and the den. Kevin was like man I do this for a living. I guess he just wanted to see what they'd say. Mike has some leftover Pergo flooring and ceramic tile. Kevin is thinking about that option. In my Pottery Barn Bathrooms book they have a bathroom with a stained and sealed plywood floor. I think it looks really nice. It's a good idea.

My Love fixed kielbasa for dinner tonight. It was good. I'd like to have had it hot of the grill but I was sort of expecting to stay a little late since I was gone yesterday. I can't find my gift certificate my department got me to the Chakras Spa. I really need that massage.

May 21, 2008 - Wednesday
Kevin can be a real butt sometimes. I came home from work and he made pizza for dinner. That was great but then whatever was eating at him he took out on me verbally.

This morning I got another error message on my computer so I called the Help Desk. Before I get started on something I just want to make sure everything is right. Every time I start Word I see a message that says something is installing so before I redo all of my shortcuts for nothing I had to get that fixed. I'm glad it only took about thirty minutes to do a repair instead of all morning. Now I'm back to normal, sort of. I have to recreate all of my macros. There's gotta be a way to save those somewhere so I don't lose them.

I grabbed lunch at Burger King and went to the lake. I've been sitting on the other side in the "cove." Yay! For cheesy tots! Now I have an alternative to the onion rings. The fries at Burger King are gross.

I tested this morning. I think I may need to pee in a cup. I never could pee straight. I'm afraid I'm going to miss the stream and not get it wet enough. Well I did this time but I guess the hardest part is lifting my roll so I can see where I pee. I got a Low reading which is normal for this time. This is so much easier than temping. I can pee on a stick. If I can see it.

May 22, 2008 - Thursday
I'm really excited about this weekend. Cristy is going to leave when she gets off work tomorrow. It's Thursday so for lunch I picked up a square fish sandwich and went to the cove. I asked for a Diet Coke but I got sweet tea. It was good too. I'm glad it wasn't unsweetened. Bleh. Before I went there I went to Petsmart to pick up some millet for the department bird. Yes, we still have him. Some people call him Julio and some people call him Hermes but they say it wrong. It's "er-mays" not "herm-ee's." Ha! I've been calling him Casey because he looks like our Casey. Anyway Denise had some sort of weird spray of seeds in there. I told Donna since he was in her office, "I'll go get him something he likes." When I brought it back he immediately started on it. I told her he'd probably have that sprig done by the end of the day. Spoiled lil' bird.

Kevin has asked to go to the race. I said, "Of course." I told him that I don't expect him to ask for permission I just want him to talk to me. We shouldn't have to ask each other for permission to do things. We should be able to do things apart from one another. He said, "Like you going to the mine and to the pen show?" I said, "Exactly." It only came up because he said I said he never tells me but that's not what I meant. I just want to know. I forgot that he will be out of town during the pen show. He told me when I asked if he would go if Cristy couldn't come down, now if my Folks don't come I told him Adam would have to go if they didn't. I don't want to be in Raleigh and him here alone. I sent Kevin the link to the show from last year. I told him in short Adam would probably like it when he sees all of the pens, not to mention you can actually play with them. That's part of the fun. Especially the ones I can't afford. : )

I decided Adam could pluck his strawberry. It was shaped like a butt. He rinsed it off and ate one "cheek" saving a "cheek" for me. It was great. Kevin was repairing some of the spindles on the deck. They were terribly warped. Yay for Lowe's Top Choice lumber! Not. We went to get a few spindles. I stayed out of the garden center. Gotta save up for the pen show.

I had a bowl of tom yum goong noodles. I hadn't had them in a while and needed something quick. It would've been better with some shrimp in it.

May 23, 2008 - Friday
Yay! My sister is here! We fixed hamburgers for dinner. I came home and fixed one and crashed in front of the TV and watched some Law and Order until she got here. Stupid dumb hamburger. I ate half of it and thought, "This don't taste hot so I touched it with my finger and then shoved my finger into the patty. Nasty. I couldn't eat it so I ate Adam's. It was so nice just to come home and watch TV uninterrupted.

Kevin came by after lunch to exchange the truck for the car and then left to go to Charlotte. I told him he'd better not take off without seeing me. He did give me $60 for this weekend which should be plenty.

I went to lunch with Ashley. We met her friend Veronica at La Fiesta. After lunch Ashley and I went to Target. I got a pedometer, a Shamu and some Finding Nemo stickers. The pedometer would be better if the button was recessed but hey it was only a dollar.

Cristy and I watched The Wedding Planner. Yes, I know, it's a chick flick but we weren't doing anything else. I'm going to bed. We've got a big day ahead of us.

May 24, 2008 - Saturday
Oh what a blast we had today! Adam had so much fun. My only regret was that I didn't get any pics of us actually doing our gem finding. We were so busy we didn't even eat lunch. We got there around noon and they were grilling out. We should have taken a break. Even Cristy said, "You know we didn't even eat lunch yet but I'm not hungry." Adam found a lot of nice big stones. We were so exhausted when we finished. My back is probably going to be so sore tomorrow. We looked like we were on a construction site all day. The museum was not open today but we did get some pics of it. It's an old Victorian. It's really pretty. We actually missed the sign to turn because we were gabbing. It was so beautiful today. We had rain early this morning and then that cleared out. There wasn't a cloud in the sky. We will definitely have to go back. I wish Kevin could've been there. He's in Charlotte. He'll be back tomorrow. Adam is excited to show him his treasure. The gem guy told Adam what he found. He had nice big rocks. You could tell he carefully chose what he wanted to keep.

We ate at the nicest Cook Out I've ever been to. It was in Statesville. I think it used to be a Schlotzsky's. Maybe all new Cook Out's look like that. I've only seen the ones that look like shoe boxes. We ate good for cheap. Cristy said, "That's the fastest, cheapest fast food I've had." We all got one of the $3.99 combos. Adam even got nuggets and fries with his BBQ and ate it all too.

Speaking of shoes, Adam had to wear my Crocs because his old red and white ones were left out on the deck last night. I'm glad I didn't toss out my New Balances yet. They're still nice they just smell like wet socks. I may still just replace the insoles.

I'm tired. We had a busy day. We're going to church in the morning. I can't believe we were sluicing for almost 4 hours and I didn't think to ask someone to take our picture. Yeesh.

May 25, 2008 - Sunday
I am really glad Kevin is home but he scared the crap out of me this morning. I was not expecting him to come in at 630am. He almost had a book thrown at him.

Kevin stayed home while we went on to church. I'm glad I went. Jake has started a series on evolution which he did a really good job getting the point across. I love Genesis. I need to re-read it.

After church we went to the Uncramped Store to get Mom's rice. We drove by the PHV but they hadn't opened yet. We drove by Binh Minh and they weren't open yet either so we went to the Cramped Store to try and find Mom's pickled gourami fish. They didn't have any but they looked like they were running low on stock.

We ate lunch at PHV. The fried rice was good and so was the fresh spring roll. After lunch we went to U&J. he didn't have the boba ready so I tried the pudding jelly. It was pretty good but it sort of reminded me of spoiled milk. Glad it didn't taste like it. Kind of tasted like taro. If I would have known the boba wasn't going to be ready I would've got some at PHV. There were people around us getting it. Even old people were getting their boba on. I told Cristy, "Look at the guy behind the counter. He's got some." Then he walked off and she said, "Yeah and now he's chewing it." Ha!

We went to Northern Tool so that Cristy could take a picture of herself beside of the tool chest Matt wanted. She agreed with me when I told her how stupid that was. Can't he read the measurement? Fifty-six inches is the same no matter where you are. Geez.

We drove through Colfax. I was curious to see the damage from last week's storm. There were so many trees that were uprooted. Some trees just barely missed people's houses.

After Cristy left I had to take Adam to Game Stop to exchange a game. He got a game but they put the wrong game in the case. What I really wanted to do was take a nap so I didn't when I came back. I think sometimes it helps me when my Folks leave. Cristy did send me a text when she got to Beckley.

I'm glad I have tomorrow off.

This morning when I tested I got a High reading. I know I can get several High readings on my first go around but still this is the most excited I've been about TTC in a while.

9:04 a.m. - Friday, Aug. 27, 2010

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